Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Blog Tour & Reviews by Jackie, Robin & Alicia: Crave Me by M Robinson


They say in order to find yourself you have to go home.
What if home was what you're running from?
Where did that leave you?
Always on the other side of the fence.
Always looking in.
Always wishing you were someone you couldn't be.
Until one day you meet her.
The one.
She was my high, but she was also...

My demise.

Colors blended together making it hard to focus on one thing. I blinked a few times and just like that…
I saw her face.
As if she was standing right in front of me.
My whole world…
My girl.
I felt my lips curl up slightly at the vision as I reached out for her. Wanting to touch her, needing to hold her, yearning to kiss her. Craving, God, craving to fucking love her.
“I’m sorry,” I murmured out loud to no one but the illusion of my drug-infested mind. “I’m so fucking sorry,” I repeated repentantly, longing for her to believe me.
Aching for her to love me again like she used to.
I don’t know how long I sat there, staring at her beautiful face before my eyes, subconsciously rubbing the tattooed key that was placed over my heart. I couldn’t take it anymore, and the desire won over the haze.
It was too powerful.
It was too vivid.
I grabbed my phone. “Baby,” I said into the speaker. The ringing quickly followed, going straight to voicemail. I hung up and tried again. “Baby,” I urged with desperation in my tone.
Still nothing.
I tried again and again and again.
I would try until the end of time if that’s what it took for her to answer.
To talk to me.
To save me.
To crave me.
Time just seemed to standstill, as my life slowly played out in front of me. Trying to balance in between the light and the darkness when all I could see was gray.
“What?!” she screamed into the phone, finally answering after I don’t know how many failed attempts. “What the hell do you want now?”
“Mi cielo.” I breathed a sigh of relief.
She ignored my term of endearment. I hadn’t called her that in such a long time.
My heaven.
“What do you want, Austin? Why are you calling me? We’re over! I can’t do this anymore!”  
I shut my eyes and let my mind wonder, allowing it to go to another place in time where she didn’t hate me.
“I remember the first time I made you smile,” I chuckled, as if it had just happened.
My nerves were on fire. The mere sound of her breathing through the phone was too intense for me. I licked my lips, my mouth suddenly dry.
“I remember when you used to smile just for me. Do you remember, baby? Do you remember what my love feels like?”
I heard her faintly breathing.
“Do you remember my hands on you? My lips? My tongue? The first time I made you come with my mouth? Do you remember all the times since? Tell me I’m not forgotten. Tell me you remember, baby.”
“I love you, Briggs. I love you so fucking much. You’re killing me, don’t you see that? I’m dying without you.”
“No, Austin. You were dying with me,” she rasped, knowing that it killed her to say that.
“The first time I saw your face, I thought to myself, damn, this beautiful girl is goin’ to be the death of me. You were perfect in every way. I was a cocky son of a bitch who needed you then, as much as I need you now.” 
More silence.
“I had a dream about you, baby. I always fucking dream about you. In my dream you had a ring on your finger. A ring I put there. You belonged to me. Only mine. Forever fucking mine. You were pregnant, Briggs. You looked so goddamn happy. I saw light at the end of the tunnel for the first time in years.”
She sniffled into the phone.
“I made love to you. Slow, just the way you love. Taking my time to touch every last inch of your body. Memorizing every last bit of you. Making you come until you begged me to stop. I didn’t.”
“I can’t—” she tried to interject, but I didn’t let up.
“I kissed your stomach. Our baby. Letting my lips linger there, whispering sweet lullabies, letting her know daddy will always be there. Baby, it was so real. For a second I gave you the one thing you so desperately wanted, the one thing I can’t give you.”




5 star Review
On the Cover it says "Our Love is Toxic" and that is what this love story is all about.
This is one of my favorite series I love how different each of the characters are yet they are the best of friends, or are they. In Austin and Daisy's story we see how life decisions can not only ruin your life they can ruin the life's of your friends and people who love you the most. Will they get a chance to put it right.
This book covers drugs and addictions but its written beautifully. Its a heartbreaking love story that had me wishing and hoping they could get it right and not kill each other in the process. Its hot, Its steamy but is that enough. I cried and I wanted to throw my kindle at the wall but this story kept pulling me back for more. 
I can't wait for more in this series.

I really enjoyed this book.  It was a solid story with lots of emotion.  This is the 4th book in the Good Ol' Boys Series by M. Robinson. This is Austin's story.  Austin was a year behind the other boys, and when the other three left for college, Austin was charged to watch out for the one girl in the group.  She became his best friend but ultimately, they were in a wreck together and that wreck was a catalyst of events for the rest of Austin's life.  Daisy wanted a doll.  While arguing with her parents they were killed in an automobile accident.  Daisy changed her name to Briggs that day and was raised by her uncle who was a drug lord.  Briggs and Austin meet and the rest of the gut wrenching story is theirs.

I love a book that can make me ugly cry.  And I have seen the early buzz about this one.  There are moments in this book that should have had me balling like a baby.  But I didn't. And I am not sure why.  Do I have a heart of stone?  I certainly do not believe that the author could have made this any longer and I absolutely believe that the book needed to cover as much time as it did.  But, I think what happened here was this became two  books, one about Austin and the other about Briggs.  Both stories deserved to be told and both stories are amazing.  You definitely get your monies worth when you buy this one.  

This book deals with the subject matter of addiction and I do want to say kudos to M. Robinson for not glorifying drug use.  The author got down into the trenches with these characters.  I applaud that.  

Where do I start with this book?  It had me completely captivated from the first paragraph.  I am new to the works of M. Robinson.  Crave Me#4 in the Good Ole Boys Series.  And it is an explosive, heart wrenching story. 
Briggs is a feisty young woman, who uses a tough guy exterior and a smart mouth to hide her pain and insecurities.  As a child, she was a spoiled little girl, whose parents who adore her.  She is in the middle of a temper tantrum in the back seat, when they are struck by a hit and run driver.  Her parents die in the accident, and she is taken to live with her Uncle.  Uncle is a dark foreboding and mysterious man.  Briggs grows up a very lonely girl, just wanting to fit in and be loved.  At the age of 15, she watches her bodyguard be beaten by her Uncle, and dragged away after he shot him.  She becomes a Martinez, and loses herself in the world of her Uncle.
Austin is a troubled young man, whose demons hound him at every turn.  As a boy, he was the youngest of the “brotherhood”, his best friends.  Austin always felt he was on the outside looking in.  As he grows older, he mistakes his great friendship with Half-Pint as love, and tries to kiss her.  Realizing he’s made a mistake, he instantly becomes a “bad boy” living a life that attempts to numb his emptiness.  At odds with his parents, he almost kills himself and his best friend in a car accident.  Feeling ashamed, angry and at odds with everyone, he runs from everyone.
Briggs meets Austin at a party, and their brief encounter has her completely entranced with Austin.  Austin is head over heels for the girl with purple hair and tattoos.  They don’t meet again for a year.  And this time, they become inseparable.  Briggs makes him a part of her world, but it’s a dark and dangerous world.  And it feeds Austin’s demons.  Will their love survive? 
This book starts you at the beginning so you understand their history as children.  And it follows them into a love story that is poignant and heart wrenching at the same time.  Austin, unable to control his demons gives into cravings.  But which craving will win?  Is craving for the drugs that numb his mind and silence the demons?  Or the craving for the girl he loves with all his heart? 
There were times I thought I had the story line figured out, and it took a twist.  I got 80% into the book, and didn’t want to read the last part.  I was just so sure it was going to rip my heart in two.  And, it did.  The ending is shocking, I didn’t see that coming…  You’ll have to read the book for yourself.  I definitely recommend it.

Have you met the other Good Ol’ Boys?
All can be read as standalone books

Complicate Me

Forbid Me

Undo Me

Crave Me

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USA TODAY Bestselling author of The VIP Trilogy, Tempting Bad, Two Sides Gianna, and The Good Ol' Boys series. M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein. She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.

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